have u sent me your thoughts??? would you like your reply now???
some of u disturb me but i like to talk about dreams always
from : drew [last name]
sent on december 30th, 2024
You’re beautiful.
hello drew. you have a wife/girlfriend i can see her in your instagram profile picture silly goose. i’m sure she loves you and would hate to know you sent this to a seventeen year old.
good luck on your marriage
gabriella
from : TW
sent on may 17th, 2025
L-O-L-A i'm at the part where the detective meets the chick who clearly may get him killed. any ideas? txt me (then he puts his phone number here)
hello TW, what a strange email! i recieved it while laying in bed with two friends and i passed the phone over the back of the sleeping one so i could show the one who was awake. he held it for a moment, seemed a bit confused, then told me to block you. i won’t because i don’t know how, and to be honest i find you just peculiar, not threatening. do you find yourself in the middle of a book, is that it? a detective story and you believe me to be the chick in question????? from your area code it seems you’re from michigan.are there no mysterious girls who might get u killed there?
a thunderclap just interrupted my train of thought. dear sweet TW i’ll say that it would’ve been more effective if you’d made it pertain to something about me. though nobody on the internet knows me so therein lies the problem. try this line in real life, perhaps, or with girls who don’t live 5000 miles overseas. im nowhere near as mysterious or dangerous as you think me to be
i wish you luck on romance sweet TW!
lola (i guess!)
from : first name last name
sent on may 31st, 2025
would you believe it if i told you that you were in a dream of mine the other morning too
hello first name last name. I wouldn’t not believe you. i dream about people all the time. i just woke from a dream where a tall man brushed the hair from my eyes and my friend wore shiny black high heels in the mud. do we know one another? you say too like i’ve just told you i dreamed of you. have i? either way, i would probably believe you.
i feel like i know u. u sent this at 6am my time. why?
gabby
from : John Doe
sent on june 14th, 2025
I recently got let go of my job at a pizza shop which I only held for 3 weeks. My boss is holding my money hostage though and because of this I will be robbing his pizza shop next week for my money+interest. Some might say this idea is crazy but honestly I’ve done crazier things.
hello john doe (i know who you are, but i’m being kind and going by your creative nickname), i’ll admit when i woke up and read this last night i thought one of my dear friends sent it in. mainly because the day before he told me about him being laid off from work and it was fresh in my mind. then i finished reading your message and i was like oh! so definitely not him! unless you are secretly this friend, and you are a pizza robber on the down low? i’ll ask him about it if i see him sometime soon.
anyways, bless your heart. you’re clearly a man of danger and risk, perhaps one of those who got jimmy hoffa or bugsy seigel. maybe the mention of pizza is just making me think of the mob. but it did remind me most of brian wells! what a sad story. i thought at first that must be the reference being made, but honestly, i just jump easily to conclusions. anyways, yes, you are a man of risk. you go to your boss and say “hey! give me the money or i’ll have this random girl (gabby!) expose you on her blog two people read!!!!” i think that should make him nervous enough to hand it over at once. don’t mention the two people part. spice it up, make it more exciting. don’t rob them for money (did you mean +interest as in interest on the money, or interest as in you’re just interested in seeing how you might rob a place?? for a bit of a thrill??? for the plot, if u will???) because i don’t want you in jail, johnny my love.
something tells me you’re american, though i could be mistaken. but i feel it. stay lovely and strong in the usa (if u are there) as it has been a difficult time as of late.
best of luck crazy john! try for the straight and narrow this summer. could be fun.
gabriella
from : venus l
sent on june 19th, 2025
do you have any advice for a 15 year old girl? cause youre like one of the coolest girls ive ever seen, you seem wise and ill honestly take anything at this point.
thank you angel xx
ps. do you hhave any tips for learning french? tenses are actually killing me!!!
hello venus l,
oh to be called wise… that makes my heart feel soft and catlike. i am so pleased a girl has discovered this blog. my email has been too dominated by men.
advice for a fifteen year old girl… hm. this will sound cliché but please stay true to yourself. when i was a younger teenager (i’m eighteen now, for context) i found myself very wrapped up in others opinions of me. i killed my hair with how much i straightened it, i dabbled in questionable diets, i wore clothes i hated, i hung out with people who made me feel like shit. i pretended to like boys who i thought were vile. i did all the things every show about high school tells you NOT to do. it wasn’t until i was about fourteen or fifteen when i was like fuck it! i’m cutting all my hair off and cutting all my friends off and listening to the cure and amy winehouse without fear of judgement. luckily i had some good friends that changed parallel to me… we’ve seen each other through many phases and followed each other out of many friend groups. people who are good for you will not ask you to be something you are not. it took me a while, but once i learned that i found out that life wasn’t totally fucking shitty.
whatever you are into is fabulous. whatever you feel is normal. get a nice journal and a flowy pen (i like muji pens because they are cheap and soft) and write until your hand forms blisters. write poetry and music or whatever makes you feel. not even feel better, just feel. i moved to france when i was fifteen, and if i didn’t make myself a home in my writing, i don’t know what i would’ve done.
coolness is an illusion. i find myself intimidated by girls on the street, on instagram, etc, thinking wow they are so cool. i find myself nervous around girls younger than me because they seem more put together than i was at their age! all this to say… the coolest people are the ones who retain that mystique while also being kind. those are the ones i still find myself starstruck by, even after becoming friends.
i hope any of that was helpful. i’m a little tired. yesterday was la fête de la musique and i’m still a bit dead from it.
as for learning french… the tenses kill me too. what helped me was i found somebody lovely and met up with her for coffee 1x a week, we spoke in only french (she spoke fluent english, french, and spanish) and when i messed up she would correct me in french. i find that was the most helpful for developing my conversational french, and it helped me comprehend a lot of vocabulary and such. additionally, listen to french music and shows. i watched new girl in french, which honestly was only slightly helpful because half the stuff they say in the show is nonsense, anyway.
i feel like sex and the city might be good in french? i’m not sure. there’s actual french shows, too, lol. i’m just a slut for rewatching stuff.
speak speak speak!!! the only way to learn is to struggle through speech.
i hope you have a beautiful weekend,
gabriella
from : chandni b
sent on june 22nd, 2025
hi miss gabriella! from girl who loves reading your blog to girl who writes said blog, never stop being so cool and awesome and cool!!! if i may ask, what are your three favorite things in theworld that give u inspo to create such delightfully beautiful, sweet art?
love
c
hello chandni b :),
you’re so lovely. thank you, seriously.
my three favorite things in the world… that is very very tricky. if we are discussing it SOLELY in relation to what inspires my art, i’d say this:
dreams : dreams fuel most of what i create. i have been consistently logging my dreams for about a year, and most ideas of mine stem from them. that and phrases that pop into my mind. memories? they’re all linked to dreams and memories. and wishes. i wish for something to occur, so i think about it. my brain takes that and gives me a strange dream. i take the dream and turn it into something else. i feel guilt, it seeps into dreamland, i get a magically shameful dream that then inspires art. i think dreams just add in poetic loveliness and remove all the nuance. it’s very straightforward and yet wildly convoluted. i love it. i hope i don’t sound too pretentious, it’s just one of my big passions
senses : i am someone who is very very sensorially challenged (as in, textures/smells/etc affect me much more than they should). though this is often horrible, it also inspires me a great deal. words themselves trigger my senses. to think of the word tongue, i feel the texture of it. if i smell some mint, words come to me. does that make sense? probably not. but i think the senses are so so so interesting. i like to write about them most of the time because i find it is what grounds me in reality. smells are my favorite. i remember the smell of who i was last in love with. whenever i smell something similar i am reminded of the poetry i wrote about them.
uncanniness : i know this word has become a buzz word because of tiktok, but the uncanny valley is genuinely something i adore. as u can see from my landing page, i like when things are very close to being normal but aren’t. it is the reason i like david lynch movies and helmut newton. i know it isn’t for everyone, but it gives me weird feelings that then translate into inspiration and passion.
this is what i could think of from the top of my head…i hope u found it of any interest. what are your inspirations? write me again if you wish, i’d love to hear.
love,
gabriella
from : Mel T
sent on june 24th, 2025
hiiii, i just wanted to say that ‘(dishwater) blond + wifely’ is honestly my favorite poem of yours!! the way you describe the lover is so beautiful and soft, and the way you describe people in general in your work is chefs kiss! if i’m not mistaken, that’s a wlw poem, so happy pride month to you!! 🏳️🌈 i’m curious, what sort of things usually draw you into people? is it particular features or more their vibes or something else? i ask because you have such a special way of noticing and writing details. i hope this isn’t too random, it’s just something i really want to bring into my own writing 🫶😚
hello mel t,
thank you very much for the compliment on my poem! i like that one a lot, still. which is rare because usually i hate my poetry with a burning passion the moment it is given to the public. it is a sapphic poem, thank you :)
all sorts of things draw me into people. i am a very sensorial girl, and what i remember most about people i’ve been in relationships with is the smell of them, the sound of their voice, the color of their teeth… i find teeth to be my favorite feature on people. my celebrity crush is kyle maclachlan and what drew me to him first was how very small his teeth are. my exes had lovely teeth, lovely smiles. yes, i sound a bit creepy. it isn’t even sexual, these fascinations. i just enjoy them, does that make sense?
when i write i think most about the features that intrigue me. it helps me connect to the moment i’m creating within the poem. when i am retelling a moment through my poem, it is easier, because i can recall all the sensory details that stuck with me in the moment. when i am writing something like dishwater blond, i have to think “in the moment what would stick to me?”
that poem came from me watching rocky horror picture show while making pasta. sometimes in moments i think : what a great combination of things. let me jot that down.
in the top of my notes app i have pinned “things i like viscerally” which reads out…
teeth
milk
pimples
angels
cocaine
cigarettes
body hair
mustaches
as you can probably tell, this stuff makes it into a lot of my poetry. if you looked at those i’d been involved with before, they fit some of these hahahaha. attraction is so weird!! i was told once, it’s funny how i always end up with attractive people, considering my type is so fucked up. what even is a type? why am i on this tangent?
another element of that poem was my own discomfort. i have emetophobia and something unnamed that makes me freak the fuck out when i’m near the kitchen sink. i suppose the blond in the story was my discomfort personified. so she took onto her all the traits of somebody who may not be considered lovely (unshaven, unstable, etc) and spun them into something loveable. if that makes any sense.
in conclusion, details come easiest when they spin from truth. not always… writing is not about always telling the truth. but i find in matters of displaying attraction through detail, looking within and finding the strangest parts of my attraction is always a good place to start. people do not draw me in often, but when they do it is nearly impossible to forget them.
i hope any of this is helpful,
love gabriella
from : Nova N
sent on june 24th, 2025
hi frankengirl!
i just wanted to say i think it’s so awesome how you get your inspiration from dreams. lately i’ve been feeling sucky with my own creativity, so reading that reminded me that most inspiration really comes from inside us 💖 it’s like, the magic is already there!
also, it got me thinking, do you believe in fate or destiny? i feel like dreams and those ideas go hand in hand. sometimes i meet someone and it’s like i’ve known them before, or things align between us in such a perfectly, weird way that it almost feels like it was meant to be. so i wonder if you have ever experienced something that felt like fate or something weird that just felt crazy? i just love hearing those wild, beautiful stories about the universe working its magic!
sending lots of love!
from n <3
hello nova n,
i think it is normal to be unsure or even insecure in your own creativity. we are fed people’s successes and finished work at a constant clip and it is so easy to look at that and think “i will never understand how to create something like that.” i will watch movies and kick myself for how good they are. as if i even make movies?? the mind astounds. when i’m bored i’ll ask myself what song i wish i had written. i usually land on video games by lana del rey.
my point to that is that because we are fed finished products without context, we forget that all of those pieces of art were inspired by other things as well. i remember once reading an amy winehouse interview where, at the Frank launch party or something, she was embarrassed by them playing the record. she felt it was unfinished, and yet it was on shelves to be bought. whereas, i think that is the greatest album of all time. isn’t that strange?? creativity is weird and uncomfortable and i hate everything i create and i find myself dull and not terribly inventive, though perhaps to others they view me differently.
i think i am rambling and i also have a fever so i am sorry if this is gibberish. i like you words… ‘the magic is already there.’ dreams are magical to me because they tell me exactly what i’m thinking about. i dreamt a few nights ago that somebody who hurt me was so so kind to me. it feels sweet even now. even though i know it isn’t real.
do i believe in fate or destiny? funny enough a lyric to a song of mine (Lola) says “don’t believe in fate but here we are.”
if you know me irl you know my favorite word is kismet. though my actual beliefs around everything are very hard to pinpoint. i do believe in fate, sorry for lying in my song, but only in the loosest degree. i believe things happen for a reason, though i haven’t thought too much on how i believe these are set up, etc. i don’t believe in the traditional God or anything. this is interesting i think i’ll think some more on this.
destiny, however, is a stranger concept to me. i don’t feel any desire to accept it into my heart. i’d rather consider passion than destiny. though sometimes when i think back on some people, it does seem like we were destined to be in each others lives. but the word i prefer more is kismet, for some reason it is more believable to me, even if the words are sisters. i think love is kismet.
i thought about sharing a story just now, but it is less to do with fate and more to do with the butterfly affect. the shortened version is somehow kissing a very revolting man on a bridge led me to kissing a sweet but angry little man on a bridge days later. cryptic but i’m not trying to make enemies in my city.
thank you,
gabriella
from : E E
sent on june 27th, 2025
firstly, you’re beautiful <3 secondly, i have a question {or maybe many haha} which camera do you take photos on?? because ur ig feed is so cute !! next, i was reading your replies and i also love your sapphic poem a lot, the way you described features , such as being unshaven but still loveable was beautiful to read. i think women have such a good ability to write about women especially romantically and you’re no different <333 will you have other sapphic works of art coming soon? of course you can write about anything you want but that was super great to me and clearly to others. anyway, Thank you and take care.
hi e e,
thank you very much for the compliment :) i take my photos on a canon powershot my dad got me when i was fourteen. it is small and grey and wonderful. it has a broken lense but that has never really affected it.
i like writing about women because i understand them more. it is easier to grasp sexuality and attraction through women, in my experience. unfortunately i have been writing mainly about men this year because a man has been occupying my brain. i wish he would get out of there, though. fucker.
i do have a sapphic short story all written up, but i’m unable to get it published anywhere. you’ve inspired me, though, so i’m gonna put a little excerpt on my writing tab.
i have lots of poetry about girls, though. maybe i’ll dig some of it up soon, just for you.
thank you,
gabriella
