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Lola

I will Love you through your faults

I will Love you when you do not love me

When u do not love yourself

Loveliness exists within you, is reborn through every breath you let out

Lola by Saint Gabriella

Lyrics:

Don’t believe in angels but there u are!

Living this fast wont get u very far…

Lola

Lola

Baby

Put down the gun!!

Too many people own u…

but nobody knows u

Don’t believe in fate but here we are

Don’t believe that you really paid for ur car…

Lola

Baby

Put down the gun!!

Everybody wants u

but nobody needs u

(but i do)

when i wrote this song i had this vision of a music video where it was a girl (Lola) and then me in a polka dot dress with yellow socks. Lola would run around the apartment room by room arguing with a very sexy man. I was imagining Louis Garrel but 20. Anyways they fight and they fight over a gun and I’m like this little doo-wop looking girl in the corner singing. It looks cool in my head. Unfortunately I don’t know any men who look like Louis Garrel and don’t own yellow socks. Maybe one day…

William Desmond Taylor

DEVOTION FEELS SO GOOD SOMETIMES

SOMETIMES EVEN THE HURT FEELS NICE

EVEN THE PAIN IS STILL MEMORY

HATRED IS STILL A KIND OF LOVE!

Lyrics:

I like you, I do

Even the rain sometimes takes on your shape

So you dagger the front yard in

White, grey

Blue

Shot me in the back

Going in for a hug

Thinking of you still while

Bleeding on the rug

It’s a different kind of awful

Not hating you

If you’re such a good guy

Why can’t I find a clue?

Put me in a coffin

Down in LA

My stuff all up for auction

Give that shit away

It’s a different kind of torture

Not hating you

I’m haunted by all

Those things you used to do

Shot me in the back

Going in for a hug

Thinking of you still

While bleeding on the rug

When i first put this song out like the only question i got was oh hey who the fuck is william desmond taylor. Okay I’ll tell you!!! He was a prominent director (and i guess he was also an actor) in Paramount during the 1910s-1920s. He’s kind of lost to obscurity today because all he’s thought of for now is how he died… he was MURDERED ! in a very mysterious way, to boot! It is still unknown who killed him but there was a theory that he could have been shot while he was embracing someone… and thus… my lyrics were born

No disrespect to the dead of course but you know, it inspired me. I think the idea of someone shooting you while you’re wrapped up in a hug is insane and cold and hollywood. Plus I’m dramatic and was like… i’m sad about a guy who is really nice so i can’t really hate him…. but he’s also kind of evil… anyways now here we go. my song. it is not the fan favorite but hey, i have like 30 listeners on spotify and that’s good enough for me :)))))))

Paris

I’m awake

Finally

Forever

Lyrics:

Paris sleeps tonight

Like it sleeps every night

But I’m awake now

The moon is soft and bright

But I’m sick of it

And I wonder how I got like this

I’m feeling everything

I’m feeling nothing

I can’t even cry now

When I hurt myself

So I hurt myself

If you were drunk our whole relationship,

Every night, did it count?

Said you’re sober now

Quit coke because

God told you to do it

Sitting in that café

Telling you our memories I recall

You looked at me

Like a lost dog off his leash

You love to do this

Love to show up and leave

Ditch the decoy, vanish

I wish I could be like that

Wish I could leave so easily

Wish I could disappear into a drink

I cannot forget anything

I’ll never forget it all

My memory is a closet

Stuffed, shits stacking to the wall

I own too much

My shoes are in the oven

You’re asleep tonight

But I’m awake

Always

Always

Always