march 8, 2024

had a dream me and teagan were on a crime spree where we were killing people who were morally wrong in our eyes. we stopped midway through killing someone to go to the bathroom (we were staying in a motel) and ours was broken so we went down the street to a grocery store and i was so scared the man behind the counter would hurt me so teagan came inside with me. the store was massive and the owner tried to set me up with her son. midway thru peeing there’s a knock at the door (thud thud thud as policemen do) and he’s like gabriella? i’m like yes? he says you’re under the arrest for the murder of [whoever and however many men we killed] and then went to arrest teagan too. i’m like can i finish peeing first? he says fine but be quick. i text miah CALL TEAGAN’S LAWYER and miah was in on it all, she was i suppose the intelligence of the operation, and she texts me back NO NO NO NO and then the cop bursts in and cuffs teagan and i. i woke up and was so thankful to be free

july 16, 2024

i was on a date and after we meet we stop to have a cigarette on a street corner and a guy comes up to me to ask for one and it is my ex. i ask him why he’s here and he just stares at me and doesn’t respond. he and the guy i’m on a date with have a conversation, then my ex leaves and i ask the guy how they know each other. we’re friends, he says. later we run into my ex again and both of them are very mean to me. i text my ex that night and ask him why he was cruel to me. he says “you think i don’t know?” then i woke up

august 10, 2024

i dreamt of two sisters and a brother in a land by the sea. every day they make a journey into a dark corridor and the youngest sister knows she will die soon. she engraves a silver blade with her older sisters initials and decides to plant it in her room. by the sea every now and then someone will jump in screaming. the sea foam is monstrous

august 11, 2024

big movie theatre it rained outside, i was with my whole family. we went (free) to the back room, which led to a theatre showing wild at heart starring nicholas cage and laura dern. it was about to show the mother throwing up so i took my headphones out and fled into another room. in there i listened to dark paradise by lana del rey. i went into another room and it was showing rebel one, my sister came by and said “the movie is starting now.” i could hear vomiting in the background. my dad held a face cream out to me, he said “this is chapstick. i brought chapstick.” i told him it wasn’t chapstick but he tried to put it on his lips and i got angry and left. we had to leave, it was still raining so they took us back inside. they made us go to a room to be assessed. my sister went first. the man at the desk ate biscuits with chocolate chips and he apologized about his uncle and if he was in a bad mood. his uncle wasn’t present. my sister asked me to dial a cab company. i found a card for one and dialed.

august 12, 2024

“i listen to music to feel not to…”

my birthday

my sister and mother

“millie smells like smoke. it smells like smoke in here a lot more often” my sister says

they are angry with me and they won’t do what i want to do on my birthday

feel like i’m being pulled

august 17, 2024

in line for an amy winehouse concert and suddenly she is stripped in front of us to her underwear

august 30, 2024

girl from instagram (s) slept over and we smoked on my rooftop and cleaned the ashes with our feet. a man appeared and he looked troubled and distant and said he wanted to break into somebody’s garage and steal their drivers licenses and if i might be able to help him. he said he’d pay me and to call him on the phone and he’d pay five dollars for every minute we spoke. i told s and we went to the phone every day. i got paranoid.

i also had a dream i was watching fire walk with me while wearing a child’s nightgown. a man came in and molested me. somebody kissed me goodnight. then i was watching the movie in a dark living room, my whole family stood behind the couch that i sat on and nobody spoke. i went to the bathroom and there was a bathtub drain that was pitch black and i stared at it until it made me feel sick and uncomfortable. when i left the bathroom my mom was mad at me.

september 5, 2024

i had a dream i was supposedly gonna be in eurovision as an audience member and i went with miah and some other friends and then it was super high security and so far underground and the building had a skylight, you could hear people cheering and then we were assigned seats and only me and miah were at this one table. they started handing out really heavy hard jewelry like rings and took all our stuff away and then i started to realize this was gonna be dangerous and then this guy in front of us kept interrupting, they brought him to the front and knelt him beside this little brass thing and had him strike his ring into it until it broke. he was in sooo much pain and then it shattered and miah and i were terrified. my alarm went off

september 7, 2024

dreamt a man was walking on the scaffolding outside my window and was about to turn around and see me through it and though my whole family was nearby nobody would listen and help

november 13, 2024

i had a dream where we were all sat in a circular classroom with many doors and my friend clarice was answering all the questions my freshman year english teacher was asking. but they were all in french and everybody was dead silent, there was a television above the whiteboard and on it was cctv footage of a man dressed as grunkle stan. he entered every room in the building but i knew it was his house and none of the classrooms were real. at the end i went up close to my teacher and told her i used to be scared to go to third grade because if one person got a stomach flu, everybody would

november 14, 2024

miah, josh, lili, and i were in this situation. as a preface i was several people and i kept being driven to a mountain while blindfolded. then somebody would take the blindfold off and put me in this mountain dungeon and it was implied i was soon to be murdered though i never saw it happen. it happened like four times and to isaiah too, and if anyone has seen the movie split it is probably because i watched that on halloween. anyways, josh is going to kill me, miah and lili, but instead we make a plan to escape through the back of the mountain which is actually this freaky hidden society and u can tell lili wants to kill all of us but she’s trying to be good and so at night we are in this abandoned house upstairs having fun but then josh is like brb i need to check that the doors are locked. so i go with him and then something starts pushing a door open and i scream NO JOSH PUSH IT CLOSED so he does while I lock it and we run to the back door to do the same but fucking LILI LET THESE ZOMBIE MOTHERFUCKERS BACK IN and so we are screaming and i’m like wait i have some spray deodorant and a lighter upstairs lets make a flamethrower (i played until dawn when i was young and impressionable and it sticks with me in my dreams) and so we go upstairs and now its miah’s room, her only lighter is mad sticky, like covered in something gross and almost unusable so we are struggling fr but then josh starts pummeling the zombies and lili does the same and miah’s like okay we have to escape and then there was something stressful that happened but i can’t remember. we kind of chill out and we go to a café and have a cigarette, but a man storms up to us and demands one in french. i say pardon c’est ma derniere clop and he’s like oh okay thats chill then. later all our parents appear and they seem to have known that man.

november 29, 2024

i was walking down a long street it was very bright out and there was a large chapel just in the center, dividing two streets. i saw well dressed people going in and i went in besides a well dressed man who didn’t acknowledge me. once inside, i saw there was a guest list and everything was ornate and circusy and all red velvet. the woman who had the list gave me a wink and said she’d put my name on the list. i tried to explore the room but a man stopped me and asked if i was there to be tattooed. i asked how much it would cost and he said something i can’t recall. there was a large room behind him, like a mix between a dining hall and a church. he had me by the arm and i wondered how my mom would feel when i came home with a tattoo.

december 2, 2024

i had a dream that me and miah were in this audition process and there were two other teams of girls and there was a toilet with a curtain. miah needed to use it so i waited for her and while she was in there david bowie appeared by my side and smiled at me in a weird way. i said omg i loved u in twin peaks and hugged him and he was like that’s great. i was like u know who loves u even more? and then i took him to miah, who was now ready to compete, and she screamed with joy when she saw him. but she told me no gaby take him away i have to focus right now so i took him away. he turned into jeff goldblum and he was being so whimsical and lowkey flirting with everyone even though we were all seventeen and he was like eighty. after miah competed he walked us out of the building and said something romantic that i can’t recall. me and miah walked away like nothing happened

december 5, 2024

i was at a party with a tall girl. i was sitting on a couch and she was on the arm rest. i said something about men staring at nipples and she made a joke about her own. i looked up and saw she had a see thru dress on and had nipple piercings and many tattoos. i told her i liked her piercings and she thanked me and laughed. she was very skinny

december 19, 2024

had a dream i was a twin orphan and we were locked in this dungeon house type of thing and we weren’t allowed to leave. there were many others locked with us and we were on the outskirts of a city and we one day saw somebody trying to escape. we followed them to stop them but got separated and i followed the person and suddenly i was the one escaping. i was in madison beer’s garden and i was doing parkour and they were following me and they caught me and i was severely punished. my family friend malia told me at dinner that she had just found out she had a twin

december 30, 2024

i was driving to miah’s house with josh and we were bringing her cookies for christmas, then she and josh went to a guitar concert and i stayed at home to help with the cookies that lili was making. my friend clarice’s mom was there, but for some reason in this dream she was miah’s mom, too. we were talking and the lights began to buzz and flicker and i looked outside and the sky was clear and then miah/clarice’s mom was freaking out and i was like it’s ok just some faulty wiring. i noticed she had a flag with really intricate writing and i was reading it out loud to lili when the house began to shake and i went to the window and saw the edge of the alien from nope, but it was clear and more ufo-like. i screamed and then the whole neighborhood started shaking and we ran outside. i didn’t really want to run because i wanted to kill myself because i always said if aliens came to earth i’d kill myself, but miah/clarice’s mom made me run with her to a train station and all of them got on a train but i stayed behind with me and forced me to go on the second train. when we got on we were in the first row and they put on a movie about a guy who is a shapeshifting alien who disguised himself as an architect. i was freaking out but miah’s mom who was now lili was comforting me and then i got up to look out the window and saw very eerie white light emitting from the train onto a pasture of agitated cows (you could hear them mooing) and then the alien flitted by but it wasn’t like an animal, it was like a glass ufo and i could see chairs inside of it.

january 7, 2025

dreamt that i had a huge audition for a modeling/acting role and i was so nervous. my cousin and aunt dropped me off and so i was in this long hallway with a bunch of stunning girls with scripts in their hands and i was waiting for a while and when i was called in i had to climb several stories and they took my script from me and then i was let into a white glass room and there was a small old computer and a short stool and in the corner was a white man and a black woman. the woman said hello to me and she asked me to sit at the computer. i sat and was staring at myself in the reflection and she told me this was an audition to be their virtual influencer and then apparently the script was a questionnaire. she said this would be very brief and that i had to just sit there while she went through a few of the questions to check against mine. she really liked what i wrote and we began having a great time and hours passed until finally she was like wow we have to leave now. i left feeling jazzed and met my aunt outside and told her how well it went and it was very grassy where we stood. then the woman called out to us “this is a huge opportunity for you but you need to let go of your abusive family.” i was confused in the dream. i’m more confused in real life.

april 28, 2025

i had a dream that this man had an obsession with me (he looked like joe from you) and he owned a newspaper. clarice and elke were like let’s go check it out, maybe we can bust him for being creepy if we get proof. so we go to his storefront and clarice/elke stay a block down waiting while i go inside. when i go in he’s very cute but much too old and very unsettling and obviously unsocialized.

he says hello!!!!!!!

we have some small talk. i walk around the store. it’s also his apartment. i’m there for a while and he suddenly says let me put some inventory away so he gets some of his newspapers and unlocks the basement door and vanishes into it. i text clarice “he has a crawl space with a lock.” when he comes back up i see clarice and elke approaching from down the street. i text them “give me 15 min then u can knock.”

at the same time he is directly in front of me, looking at me suspiciously, so i kiss him. clarice and elke walk in, he spins around as i shoo them out and is like “wtf do you know them?” i’m like “umm”

he tries to kick me out but i kiss him again. he is sad. i say “i liked it when we were kissing in the beginning”

april 29, 2025

i had a dream i was in a car with a man and we stopped to have a cigarette. i ask him to come closer and we kiss. he takes a photo of me. he tells me he really likes me and asks what we are. i say we’re nothing. he drives us to a field. he gets on a horse and gallops away, i walk after him and there’s a terrifyingly massive horse in the distance, drinking water. i run away, back to the car, and he’s like oh hello.

he drives me to his apartment and his mom is there. i say hi to her but she’s a bitch. i offer her a plastic crown but she says no and leaves. now his brother is there. he (the man not the brother) goes downstairs for band practice. me, his brother, and his mother watch him play. he’s surrounded by people with colorful hair and his mother vomits clear liquid into the cracks of the balcony. he comes back upstairs. i tell him i’m gonna go but he begs me to stay. he kicks out his family.

april 30, 2025

had a dream last night i went to a cramps concert and lux interior was looking sexy as hell on the stage. the venue was huge but empty. it was me and about twenty old men and that’s it. nobody danced, and because it was so empty i felt too awkward to dance.

after i was waiting in the hall and saw rea, who said she was at the concert too but i hadn’t seen her. she had on a sherpa coat. our parents came to get us and her dad was like, rea why do you smell like smoke? she’s like, “oh i was given cigarettes as gifts up there but i did NOT smoke them. i took them from this guy who was on tech because he’d never smoked a cigarette before and he kept vomiting over and over. he vomited on my coat so i had to get this new one from h&m.” she seemed most upset about the last part. eventually my mom and i went outside but then for some reason i was a spectator watching this go down:

lin manuel miranda as hamilton, and all the other cast and crew, but in this version of hamilton he had a daughter who was a fuzzy circle and it was her birthday and he was being accused of sexual abuse. everyone hated him but he was like no guys i swear i’m innocent. i was on his side but now i don’t even know if he was innocent. but his daughter was blue and a circle so i’m not sure. her birthday cake was funfetti but the frosting was made of paper

may 7, 2025

a man dm’d me but he was blocked so i was confused. i realized it was a new instagram feature where u can message blocked accounts once and they can choose if they want to unblock u

may 27, 2025

dreamed i was at nina’s joint birthday party with her best friend but every time miah tried to gather the rooms attention for nina, the little girl stole the show. she was so small she wasn’t able to touch the floor she sat on top of a suitcase and slid off and dangled her toes off the side. me and miah shared a table with her and nina and i said “miah i’ve known u since 1992 and i have never seen this fucking bitch a day in my life” and we died laughing but then the girl was going to say something but i woke up